This is not my first blog. I started a few during the dark parts of my addiction. Then started another when I began my recovery. I feel it is a good time to start over and go back to the beginning of my story. Maybe one day my story will help another. But for now, I’m satisfied with this helping only me while I sort this out.
Today I love my life, but it wasn’t always like this. There were times I wanted to die and times I tried. I felt worthless and had no hope. But those feelings have been replaced. Life isn’t perfect now, but I deal with it better. A few days into my recovery, I had a family member pass away. The first time I saw family in years was at his funeral, but I made it through and stayed sober. I stayed in a self made cocoon for years, hiding from everyone. I’m glad that is no longer the case.
I’m 39 years old. I am a female. I am a mother of 4. I am a wife, and have been for 23 years. I am a sister. I am a daughter of an addicted and alcoholic mother. I am a daughter of an addicted step dad. I am a daughter of an alcoholic dad.
Miraculously I made it out. It wasn’t pretty and it wasn’t easy. But I’ve made it. I am the person that my mother always intended to be. But I’m on no pedestal. I was lucky. God showed me an escape and I ran towards it like crazy.
I have no shame for where I’ve been, only goals for where I am going.
“I have no shame for where I’ve been, only goals for where I am going.”
Beautiful words. May you have continued success.
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Thank you so much for your kindness!!
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It’s my pleasure. Reading recovery stories fills me with hope.
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I love that this post is so honest. It is sure to help others going through the same thing. You’re off to a great start.
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Thank you so much!!
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Nothing defines you as long as you have a goal to mive forward and make it count.
Beautifully written.
You are an amazing and brave soul .
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Thank you for your very kind words!!
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You are most welcome,keep inspiring 🙂
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This post is absolutely beautiful! Your story is a great testament and will be a stepping stone for someone who is where you once were. We all have a story to tell that will help someone get through theirs little bit easier. Thank you for sharing your journey! I’m inspired. 🙂
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Thank you so much!! I appreciate your words!
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Congratulations on being the person to break your family history of addiction. I love your attitudes. I have no doubt that even this one post will help others.
Welcome to the Word Press blogging community. I know you will find this a very supportive place to be.
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Thank you thank you thank you!!
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🙂
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I have anxiety and panic disorder and I tell everyone
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It’s freeing to me when people know my problems…
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Look for the small joys in life. They are many!
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I’m finding the miracles in the small things every day! I’ve told my husband night after night, the sky is so beautiful. He’s told me it’s always been that way, you just never looked before.
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Great post! Thank you for sharing. I am looking forward to reading more from you.
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Thank you thank you!!
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You are very welcome!!! 🙂
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I really like this post. I am sure, your efforts will give you the fruitful results. You are a brave and strong person who didn’t give up. You are a true inspiration.!! God bless you!.
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Thank you for your awesome words!!
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“I have no shame for where I’ve been, only goals for where I am going.” These two lines shows everything. This everything shows everything; from why did you wanted to come out from that ‘hell’, your positive attitude life after a bad experience, where you want to go in life now and so forth.
It need guts to jot down things like these and you showed you have by telling the truth.
Best of luck for future!
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Thank you so much. I truly appreciate your compliments!!
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You deserve them!
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🙂
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Thanks for sharing! I too am a woman in recovery and connect with what you’re writing 🙂 it’s always hopeful to hear another story filled with love and growth in a time so heavy with the destruction of the disease. I look forward to reading more 🙂
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Thank you and while I hate you’ve been there too, it’s good to know other people can relate!!! So grateful to connect with others that are going through the same battle!
Recovery is tough but so worth it!!
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The more people hide, the more alone we feel. But we are not alone. We are all struggling. I love your attitude. Tweeting: “I have no shame for where I’ve been, only goals for where I am going.” as a lead to this post.
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I’m speechless which never happens. All I’ve wanted was to maybe have someone else understand my words.
You’ve just made my week. I told my husband my words made it to Twitter!! 🙂
He said how cool is that.
Extremely cool to me….the words are overused but I truly truly mean it: thank you thank you
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My pleasure! Keep up the good work. 🙂
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Good on you for taking the chance. Many wouldn’t have…
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Thank you!!
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you really area a survivor. I had no impediments as a child, but still ended being alcoholic… better now though
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Glad you are better!! 🙂 Thank you
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