This program has taken me years to attend. I first heard about it, ironically enough, from my moma. The same person that introduced me to my drug of choice.
She told me I should look in to the program after I finished rehab.
I didn’t know much about it, but it is church, Bible based addictions program. My church actually had a chapter of the program running for several years. But I never went.
I left rehab and my world continued it’s downward spiral for months. Late last year I remembered the program name and thought I want that! I grew up in church, but never experienced the full power of God till last year. It was amazing.
I started my hunt for a church than ran the program. My home church had stopped it because enough people did not show up.
I went to the RU website, check their map and wrote down all the churches within 40 miles of me. Most of the places I called, told me they no longer offered this. I found one, 45 minutes away from my home.
I went, and this specific one was not the meeting for me. For reasons I may explain later, or may just keep to myself. After this meeting I slowly worked my way back to another relapse during the Christmas season.
I found one a little closer this year. In March, my husband visited with me once. After the initial visit, I’ve went here and there but not very consistently.
I read somewhere this week: If no actions change, everything else will remain the same. It hit me. I need to take action, jump on something.
God willing, I’ll be faithful to this program. Tonight I finally received my first award for work I’d done. It feels a tiny bit cheesy to me, but no different than AA chips- in my humble opinion.
I’m almost finished with the first Pamphlet. It’s called The Overcomer, Entry Level Workbook. I have 2 more tasks to do. Attend a Sunday School class somewhere, and give a pamphlet to someone that I think could benefit.
As soon as I do these things, I move to the first real book. I pray I continue.
This is the only program for me. I’ve learned, I’m a replacer. I have switched out addictions for many many years. I conquer one thing, then just pick up another. I’m looking for freedom, not juggling. This is the program for me, because I believe it. I do believe Christ can do all things, so surely He can help me. I don’t have much, but I have faith.